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College
Midterms
bleh >.<
College
Midterms
bleh >.<
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College
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Okay, so I've been back from Vietnam for a long while now and since then all I heard about is about my college life, dorms, and all this and that.
Strangely, I am willing to listen to those close to me or even not so close to me, for instance, I actually had a decent talk with my dad. Though I don't really agree with him on one issue, but it wasn't like we were at each other's necks. I am grateful for having that conversation, but then it was just too long. I finally found out why he wouldn't say sorry to me every time I'm right, well I didn't really found out why, he just told me he couldn't do it since he feels that it isn't necessary.
Then I got some talking time with my two uncles and one of my uncle's girlfriend. It was understandable. They mainly just touched on the subject of looking out for myself since there are people out there that can do me harm.
Then my aunt from far away came back. And that really was where everything went wrong and totally bleh. Sorry, I am lacking the power to actually use words. [Need to go get undumb soon!]
Really, who out there has the power to really tell me what I should do in life and what I shouldn't strive for. My parents use to do that, and now they totally understand that what I want to do and love to do is all my decision. No one in my family pressured me about my career choice and all that.
But then my aunt comes along and all she does is go on and on about that I should get a government job and become someone like my aunt, or go into business and have connections and all that crap. Totally understandable, BUT IT ISN'T SOMETHING I WANT TO DO!
Sure, a government job has it benefits, but I don't want to turn out to be some person in a cubicle doing paperwork. And business is wayyyy too much thinking on my part.
I'm getting the feeling that she doesn't think my choice in career is a something beneficial or anything. All she wants is me to make a lot of money and to take care of myself. In my opinion, sure getting a lot of money is good, but it can't keep me happy, mostly when I'm doing some kind of job that might bore me to death. And sure taking care of myself is good, but then after all these years, I can't help my family, my parents, who raised me up to this point?
I don't want to turn out like her, someone who ran away from the family and now only thinks about herself and all that. I want to help my parents with bills. I want to lead my siblings down the right path that way my parents would think the same thing they do to me to them. I want to be able to make my family proud and help keep this family going and happy.
And that is what I wish for and will strive to do so in my own way, doing my own thing, getting whatever money I can from whatever I do.
And I apologize for the rant, I just had to get it out of me somehow, though I know no one really reads this, except for like, Olivia..and maybe Jessica now...
P.S. I'm moving into dorms for college September 20th. I will try my best to upload whatever I can before I leave for that complicated part of my life.
Strangely, I am willing to listen to those close to me or even not so close to me, for instance, I actually had a decent talk with my dad. Though I don't really agree with him on one issue, but it wasn't like we were at each other's necks. I am grateful for having that conversation, but then it was just too long. I finally found out why he wouldn't say sorry to me every time I'm right, well I didn't really found out why, he just told me he couldn't do it since he feels that it isn't necessary.
Then I got some talking time with my two uncles and one of my uncle's girlfriend. It was understandable. They mainly just touched on the subject of looking out for myself since there are people out there that can do me harm.
Then my aunt from far away came back. And that really was where everything went wrong and totally bleh. Sorry, I am lacking the power to actually use words. [Need to go get undumb soon!]
Really, who out there has the power to really tell me what I should do in life and what I shouldn't strive for. My parents use to do that, and now they totally understand that what I want to do and love to do is all my decision. No one in my family pressured me about my career choice and all that.
But then my aunt comes along and all she does is go on and on about that I should get a government job and become someone like my aunt, or go into business and have connections and all that crap. Totally understandable, BUT IT ISN'T SOMETHING I WANT TO DO!
Sure, a government job has it benefits, but I don't want to turn out to be some person in a cubicle doing paperwork. And business is wayyyy too much thinking on my part.
I'm getting the feeling that she doesn't think my choice in career is a something beneficial or anything. All she wants is me to make a lot of money and to take care of myself. In my opinion, sure getting a lot of money is good, but it can't keep me happy, mostly when I'm doing some kind of job that might bore me to death. And sure taking care of myself is good, but then after all these years, I can't help my family, my parents, who raised me up to this point?
I don't want to turn out like her, someone who ran away from the family and now only thinks about herself and all that. I want to help my parents with bills. I want to lead my siblings down the right path that way my parents would think the same thing they do to me to them. I want to be able to make my family proud and help keep this family going and happy.
And that is what I wish for and will strive to do so in my own way, doing my own thing, getting whatever money I can from whatever I do.
And I apologize for the rant, I just had to get it out of me somehow, though I know no one really reads this, except for like, Olivia..and maybe Jessica now...
P.S. I'm moving into dorms for college September 20th. I will try my best to upload whatever I can before I leave for that complicated part of my life.
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Vietnam
1 min read
I'm there, well not really but gonna go to the airport and go soon.
I won't be back until August 23rd. Hear from you guys then
I won't be back until August 23rd. Hear from you guys then
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Super Junior
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I just want to put this out there.
MARRY U [JP] - SUPER JUNIOR IS TOTAL LOVEEEE!!!
It's so cute. I can't stop listening to it >.<
Watch me start singing it...wait...I already did -.-
P.S. IT'S IN THREE DAYS!! O.O
Apparently I use DA more now that I'm gonna be gone soon ^^U strange
MARRY U [JP] - SUPER JUNIOR IS TOTAL LOVEEEE!!!
It's so cute. I can't stop listening to it >.<
Watch me start singing it...wait...I already did -.-
P.S. IT'S IN THREE DAYS!! O.O
Apparently I use DA more now that I'm gonna be gone soon ^^U strange
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Trip
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It's in 5 days. 5 DAYS!!!
I'll try to take pics of the pictures I'm gonna draw my friends that I would be sending in the mail to them when I get back.
I am hoping that I don't have another artist's block and/or my relatives stealing my time on pictures...even though I should be spending time with them rather than pictures...
Anywho, if anyone would like anything from Vietnam, and this means anyone as in my friends, please tell me so I can make a list.
I feel like bring something ridiculous back for Alaina for her bday, any ideas?
I'll try to take pics of the pictures I'm gonna draw my friends that I would be sending in the mail to them when I get back.
I am hoping that I don't have another artist's block and/or my relatives stealing my time on pictures...even though I should be spending time with them rather than pictures...
Anywho, if anyone would like anything from Vietnam, and this means anyone as in my friends, please tell me so I can make a list.
I feel like bring something ridiculous back for Alaina for her bday, any ideas?
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